I dont know why i always ended up like that, fallin with straight guys. Well, at least i still have myself in one piece. Fallin with straight people? Been there, done that, MOST of the times. For me, who dont go hang-out frequently, or harshly i say dont even go hang-out, is so difficult to find someone who share with same intentions, gay-ish!. I always comfy to get myself alone inside my room, or just takin a walk in late afternoon, or go to library, or cake-store, just by myself, alone. That's why, bein stuck in the crowd is one major hell kinda matter to me. I dont go hang-out, such as clubbin or whatsoever, but except note for music concert or go to the movie theatres. Because of it, its difficult for me to get someone to share about this kinda gay-ish experiences. And my affections went bluntly. Just soarin for some guys who round my ways, and doesnt even know if he had some kinda gay-ish or hetero sex-orientations. I just follow my heart, or rather i say instings. Hehe, lol, quite tricky isnt it? Sometimes, if i had dropping him some shallow hints. Then if got some positive feed back, maybe i would like turn my active mode on. Maybe like sending him some letters, but then of course with no name. Because its quite enough for me for havin beatin up, for mislead gave some guy with same purpose, lol. Then inside the letter, i gave him some code and anagram, kinda like Da vinci-code thing, so if he was "Langdon" enough, he will meet me. And back in history, no one ever succed it. Is it me who gave them difficult quizzes or he was to damn retarded? Or maybe he was not quite interestin havin me? LOL, hehe. But , its so much fun for havin these kinda feelin. Its like a stupid teenager who got his first love. Evertime eager try to find out more about him, more close to him, more time to spend to see him, more and more. Then when the time run out, and finnaly realize that he was non gay-ish for you to seek out for more. BANG!!! Its like takin a bullet, or even u hard enough to breath in vast thin air. Just like normally "straight" broken heart, we, gay also had that kinda thing [do u think gay are Martian?]. Its takin time for me to heald. It took quite sometime, depend for each person that i hitted. If it grew so much feelin that deliberately, so it took quite some long nights that spend with my eyes burstin while listening for ballad songs. Until now, even Facebook or other social media web 2.0 or growin rapidly. I still find myself still single. Eventough, i a'edy had lots of friend who share with same gay-ish thing. Local and ven abroad. Then again, i always keep hittin some guys around my daily life. Hehe, lol. Never get enough, maybe i just lookin its different for now. I dunno. Or will u tell me why?
Fallin For Straight Men?
I dont know why i always ended up like that, fallin with straight guys. Well, at least i still have myself in one piece. Fallin with straight people? Been there, done that, MOST of the times. For me, who dont go hang-out frequently, or harshly i say dont even go hang-out, is so difficult to find someone who share with same intentions, gay-ish!. I always comfy to get myself alone inside my room, or just takin a walk in late afternoon, or go to library, or cake-store, just by myself, alone. That's why, bein stuck in the crowd is one major hell kinda matter to me. I dont go hang-out, such as clubbin or whatsoever, but except note for music concert or go to the movie theatres. Because of it, its difficult for me to get someone to share about this kinda gay-ish experiences. And my affections went bluntly. Just soarin for some guys who round my ways, and doesnt even know if he had some kinda gay-ish or hetero sex-orientations. I just follow my heart, or rather i say instings. Hehe, lol, quite tricky isnt it? Sometimes, if i had dropping him some shallow hints. Then if got some positive feed back, maybe i would like turn my active mode on. Maybe like sending him some letters, but then of course with no name. Because its quite enough for me for havin beatin up, for mislead gave some guy with same purpose, lol. Then inside the letter, i gave him some code and anagram, kinda like Da vinci-code thing, so if he was "Langdon" enough, he will meet me. And back in history, no one ever succed it. Is it me who gave them difficult quizzes or he was to damn retarded? Or maybe he was not quite interestin havin me? LOL, hehe. But , its so much fun for havin these kinda feelin. Its like a stupid teenager who got his first love. Evertime eager try to find out more about him, more close to him, more time to spend to see him, more and more. Then when the time run out, and finnaly realize that he was non gay-ish for you to seek out for more. BANG!!! Its like takin a bullet, or even u hard enough to breath in vast thin air. Just like normally "straight" broken heart, we, gay also had that kinda thing [do u think gay are Martian?]. Its takin time for me to heald. It took quite sometime, depend for each person that i hitted. If it grew so much feelin that deliberately, so it took quite some long nights that spend with my eyes burstin while listening for ballad songs. Until now, even Facebook or other social media web 2.0 or growin rapidly. I still find myself still single. Eventough, i a'edy had lots of friend who share with same gay-ish thing. Local and ven abroad. Then again, i always keep hittin some guys around my daily life. Hehe, lol. Never get enough, maybe i just lookin its different for now. I dunno. Or will u tell me why?